Tyler Novak-Kagan (
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My ashes, as the phoenix, may bring forth....
Ty's eyes fluttered slowly, and for the first moments he was lost as to what was going on. He had no recollection of where he was, though he could quickly put together that was he in some sort of hospital room. He could also feel his toes, and move his hands- so...that ruled out, well...something. There was a steady beat on a machine to his left, the loud beeping keeping time with his remarkably steady heart as he stared at it before he spotted Ollie sitting in a chair- asleep from everything he could see.
But...that still didn't explain why he was there. Or, actually, why Ollie was there. Maybe they'd gotten into some sort of bar fight. He doubted he'd drank too much, he wasn't a particularly heavy drinker even when he could afford to drink as much as he wanted. Reaching up, he ran a hand over his face, before he sat up. He seemed....alright.
Why couldn't he remember what had happened? The last thing he remembered had just been him....going to bed. So why....
"What's....what's going on?" He asked, reaching up to rub his temple as he tried to message the dull buzz out of his head. There was a persistent fog in his mind, he thought. Maybe after he just woke up more he'd manage to work out that the fucking hell was going on.
But...that still didn't explain why he was there. Or, actually, why Ollie was there. Maybe they'd gotten into some sort of bar fight. He doubted he'd drank too much, he wasn't a particularly heavy drinker even when he could afford to drink as much as he wanted. Reaching up, he ran a hand over his face, before he sat up. He seemed....alright.
Why couldn't he remember what had happened? The last thing he remembered had just been him....going to bed. So why....
"What's....what's going on?" He asked, reaching up to rub his temple as he tried to message the dull buzz out of his head. There was a persistent fog in his mind, he thought. Maybe after he just woke up more he'd manage to work out that the fucking hell was going on.
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He didn't remember when Sebastian Novak - and Ty's cousin had been the one tasked with dealing with the stubbornly immovable group that surrounded Ty - had stopped trying to force he and Hadyn out of the room. A week or so ago, perhaps, when he'd left it to Hadyn and Ollie to force each other to take breaks. And wasn't that just ironic? The two of them. Ollie had assumed the two of them would never see eye to eye on a damn thing.
As it happened, they saw eye to eye on quite a few things, lately.
It was his night, though, to stay, and Ollie had settled into the chair next to Ty and expected that he wouldn't sleep much; he hardly ever did. He barely slept even the nights he wasn't there, and the night owls of the Deck had often seen Oliver Byrd running through the streets, or heard piano music coming from his apartment at all hours. Eventually that all had to catch up with him, of course, and he'd looked hollow-eyed when he'd pushed Hadyn out of the room. It hadn't taken him long to pass out in the chair.
All of which was why he didn't wake, not until he heard Ty's voice, and then he stared. "You're awake," he breathed out. There had been a part of him, a large, secret part that he never acknowledged, who had feared that Ty never would.
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"Why.....am I here?" He asked, looking at Ollie pointedly. He didn't know why the man looked ragged and torn, but he need a fucking explanation. In his mind- he should have just woken up in a bed. His bed, actually. Not here, and not with Ollie looking at him as if the world was finally right again. "Why can't you just....tell me what is going on? Why? Wh-why am I here?" There was an anxiousness in him that was growing, and the heart monitor seemed to slowly follow suit with as his heart started to beat a little faster.
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It sounded so stark and simple in those terms, Ollie thought as he wet his lips. "You've been...out, for two weeks."
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"Two weeks?" He repeated, though he felt it more like he was missing a month of time- two whole weeks worth of memories gone. What the hell? "I don't....I don't remember any of that. I...I remember going to bed." He said, sounding utterly confused. He did not doubt Ollie, but it was still something difficult to wrap his mind around.
Two weeks in a coma, and another two weeks just...erased.
"Why was someone...trying to kill me?"
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Now, he pressed his lips together and wished that Hadyn was here instead. And that, he thought with a bit of dark amusement, was something Ty would find shocking even if he remembered more. He should get the doctor, he thought, and let someone else explain all this. But then, if it were him - he'd want to know as much as he could first thing. Ollie hid the flinch that the look on Ty's face had given him under the mask that Diamonds were all so good at.
"You're the King of Clubs' son," he said. "You're a highly capable Ten, a man who honed himself into a weapon. If someone wanted to take your father's position, aren't you the first one they'd want out of the way?"
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And in truth, a part of Ty had started to suspect Hadyn's hand was deeper in the politics of the suit than most people suspected. As he'd gotten older, he'd noted more than a few high ranked members of the suit treated him almost as though he were a Face Card himself.
"But I get your point," he said after a moment, shaking his head as a nurse suddenly walked in and smiled brightly at him. She said it was good to see he was awake, and that she'd fetch the doctor before leaving the two alone again.
"You don't look like you've slept in a while." He commented, finally, as he looked at Ollie closely.
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He slumped a bit in his chair as the nurse checked Ty's vitals, and glanced over at him again when he spoke. "I think you'll find that there's a lot of people who haven't slept in a while," he said, and paused. "You don't remember me much, do you?"
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"You could...just catch me up on things, or....kiss me." Something, something other than slumping in his chair looking like a whipped dog. Though, this did bring up one extra point- "someone has been feeding my cat, right?"
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Ollie smiled a bit, though. "Now, that sounds more like you," he said. "Can't decide if you want intel, or me naked. Alas, I feel like the doctor would object to option two." He did, though, lean forward and give Ty a soft kiss. "We've had a whirlwind, you and I," he murmured as he leaned back. "Two very quick weeks. I'm sure your parents worried about me getting my claws in you, or some such thing."
Though with Carlos and Gael, and Sarah getting more distant as both her twin and her best friend got themselves entangled - Ollie also imagined that Hadyn and Elisha might have already had their hands too full to worry about Ty getting tangled up with him. At least he was mostly on an even keel.
"I've got a key, actually, which is how I can tell you that the General has accepted me as a person worthy of opening his cans. Not worth much else, I'm afraid, but he hasn't starved." His smile slipped a bit. "You headed out to check something two weeks ago. It was supposed to be your day off, and I'd spent the night. I came looking for you because you never called."
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It was weird, really, to discuss his relationship with such a casual acceptance despite having no memory of it. It was almost like he was in a play, or watching a movie...It was bizarre and made little sense. But also, it seemed very plausible based on what he already knew about Ollie and himself.
"Oh, right.....The General is a picky fellow. If he's accepted you for food, it is only a matter of time before your head is his personal pillow." He said with a slight smile until Ollie mentioned what had happened. Ah, he thought, that was....strange. He should have been felt sense of unease about something like that, and taken Carlos with him. "Wait.....I went alone? Why the fuck wasn't Carlos there?"
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His smile faded a bit, though, as Ty mentioned Carlos. Far too much had happened in the last month, he thought. "Carlos is recovering from injuries. He challenged to Nine in swords and it didn't go exactly according to plan." He had a very Outside point of view there, he thought, that he would just ignore for right now. "He got stabbed, in the right thigh. That's fine now, the stitches came out before all of this. But he dislocated his shoulder too. I think you thought it was better to check it on your own, considering."
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"Huh." He said, turning his head to look out the window before looking back at Ollie and chewing his bottom lip just a little. "Right. This is weird, so fucking weird." And he was wearing a hospital gown which kept him from immediately standing up, even though he shifted on the bed to move his legs around to the side.
"Ah, Mr. Kagan, you are awake." The doctor said, coming into the room with a smile. He looked Ty over, checking his vitals, nodding a little at the missing memory- it was expected that he'd miss time, but pointed out that they were lucky it was only a few weeks. Typically people lost months, sometimes years. Still, he said all in all- Ty seemed to be fine. A rare, but welcome outcome for someone who just came out of a coma.
"However, and this is very important for you both- Mr. Kagan, Brain Injuries are a tricky thing. There is a very high probability that you will have....seizures. I cannot tell you what sort, or when, or even if it will happen. But the chance exist."
Well- he supposed it was too much to ask to walk up without something completely wrong.
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"I might have been here too much," Ollie said as the doctor left. "I think he just cast me as your husband." Next there'd be instructions for care going to Ollie rather than Ty's parents. He looked over at Ty, though, with a bit of a smile.
"I suspect it doesn't really help to say it could have been a lot worse." It could have, though. Ty could have died. He could have had a leg blown off. He could have had total amnesia. Ollie'd had plenty of time to think about what could have happened in the last few weeks.
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"I....right. Could have have been worse." He said, in agreement, before looking at Ollie with the first hints of his personal frustrations. "I guess I know why they didn't take the cath out. There will be no walking to the bathroom whenever I feel like it." Which just chafed. He liked his personal feeling of freedom. "I assume my parents are promising death for someone..."
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And...likely Carlos would still be directing Security, he realized. At least for the time being. Even with Ty awake, probably he couldn't immediately take the reins back. "Hadyn has been extra bloodthirsty," he said. "Really, it's been a tie between him and Sarah as to who can come up with the most murderous vengeance. Elisha is...calm. Mostly." Not exactly in a comforting way, however.
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The last thing he remembered, after all, was that he could walk just fucking fine.
But before he could say anything, he saw Hadyn and then Elisha coming into the room. Hadyn's smile seemed genuinely relieved to see him awake, and Elisha's was a little more guarded- mostly how the two had always been as he'd grown up. "Hey," he said, waving a little at them. "I'm awake....apparently that is a new thing."
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He wasn't angry at Ty; what reason did he have to be angry at Ty? He asked himself as he went down a quiet hall and paused. He turned and leaned his head against the wall for a moment, closing his eyes. He was tired, he thought. Very tired, and he just wasn't being rational about it. He'd give Ty some time with his actual family, and they'd...figure it out.
"How many times have you tried to get out of bed so far?" Elisha asked in the makeshift hospital room with a faint twitch to his lips. He could say that he knew his son, but it was more fair to say that he knew himself, and he knew that this happened to be a way his children were like him.
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Still, he pulled his legs back onto the bed and smiled a little at his father as he pushed his hair back from his eyes. He even barely noticed when Hadyn turned to look back at where Oliver had gone with a slight frown on his lips. His parents, really, looked hardly better off than Oliver had. For better or worse.
"Just the one time so far," he said to Elisha, looking down at his fingers as he gripped them together in frustration. "I....I'm sorry. I don't, I don't even remember what happened- but I've been told." He shouldn't have gone alone- though if he hadn't, others could have been hurt as well. So it was really a catch-22.
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"I'm sure your father could share some words about emulating me in unnecessary ways," Elisha said a bit gravely. They hadn't seen the doctor yet, but he had been in the army - and he'd seen brain injuries before. The time Ty had lost might be recovered - and might be gone forever. "You went alone, Oliver said. Probably you should have taken him along at minimum." He'd been aware Oliver Byrd could handle himself before the music director had clashed with Hadyn the first time; he'd been aware within months of the man coming to Diamond Castle. And for all that Ollie's military past had been spent in aircraft rather than on ground, one didn't survive the crash he'd survived without some steel and a strong survival instinct.
He shook his head though, looking over at Hadyn before speaking again. "What do you last remember?"
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"Well," Ty started, as if he were going to defend an action that he can't very well remember, before he thought better of it. "I'm sure I had a good reason...or, something." Honestly, it had to be. Ty was the Head of Security, and generally not prone to high risk behavior outside of the necessary. Which, granted, his job did involve high-risk behavior. But it was a moot point. "I probably should have, but then both of us could be in the hospital right now...or dead. I guess."
He sighed though, shaking his head. "Last thing I remember?" He asked, considering it carefully. "Going on a date, then going home...going to bed. Waking up here. It is a little weird...to apparently have lost a month." Weird was one way of putting it. Frankly it was down right disconcerting. If he thought about it another, he imagined it would bother him more...but in the last 20 minutes of being awake, he'd resolved to just not think about it.
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Which was likely to change now, no matter how much he might like to force it to be otherwise.
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"He needs his own time," Hadyn's voice cut in through his thoughts unexpectedly, causing him to look up at his father with a bit of surprise. Carlos always swore Hadyn was the one full of sage advice, and Ty believed that for the most part. He also knew most of that advice probably came from, well, dealing with himself.
"I know," Ty said, shrugging again. "I get it...I'd feel the same in his place." He said, looking away from Hadyn and his concerned gaze. He didn't want the man to see more, he didn't want Hadyn's mind to play a game with him- make his father believe this was all his fault. And while it seemed ridiculous that he would, Tyler had seen first hand what the chaos of Hadyn's mind could do to the otherwise rational, calm, and caring man.
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"Hadyn," he said though. "Would you mind if I had a minute with Ty?" His lips twitched. "You can go smoke and we'll pretend we don't know."
He waited until Hadyn was gone before he leaned his elbows on his knees. "I can practically sense you trying to protect us from what's going on in your head," he said. "You don't have to, you know. You can be upset and pissed off and we can take it, son."
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"When I was nine, I can remember him bursting into our apartments....and moving so...bizarrely. When I called out to him, at first he just ignored me, and then....looked at me as if he had no idea who the hell I was. The whole time, just...going on and on in a babbling triad that made no sense to me." Ty said, looking up at Elisha. "You know he stabbed himself, trying to claw something out of him? He did....and never once seemed to realize I was standing there, crying....and on the phone with Uncle Jordan."
He paused then, looking back at the door. He and Hadyn had never had a strong relationship after that- one part fear of upsetting Hadyn, one part a boy being angry that his father would do something like that. Even as an adult, Ty still found himself dealing with those raw feelings as if they were something he could deal with.
"I...know he's better, before you say it. I know that, but medication on does so much. And...well..." He didn't want to be the reason something broke in Hadyn's semblance of peace of mind. "He doesn't look like he's slept any more than Oliver....or you."
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"She was sick too," he said. "Sometimes she'd come in like that, and there was no understanding what was going through her head. And sometimes she'd crash, and want to end it all, too. So, I do understand, Ty. I know where you're coming from." He hadn't wanted to be what broke his mother, either. The difference between Hadyn and Reina was - Hadyn had done something about it. Reina had, at some point along the line, embraced her disorder as artistic temperment. He shook his head a bit, though; getting mired in past 50 years old wasn't worth it.
"You can only protect so much," he said. "And at some point you've got to remember that fighting against something like bipolar takes emotional strength. Your grandmother didn't have that strength, but your papa does. He has more than I do, really." And sometimes Ty needed to be the kid.
"I think you'll find most people who love you haven't been sleeping much," he said, though. "Sarah's running on rage and coffee fumes and Carlos is just powering through it. You can't expect less from Hadyn."
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"He...." He wanted to argue that Hadyn wasn't strong, but rather tied down to it. Ty suspected that the only way Elisha and Hadyn stayed together was that Hadyn stayed on his medication; Ty had gathered that much from over heard conversations when he was supposed to be asleep. He was supposed to be the child, but he had never felt that way with Hadyn. Despite, perhaps, Hadyn's best efforts. "Would you stay, really....if he wasn't on enough medication to tranq a horse?" Ty asked, looking up at Elisha.
"I get it, he's been worried- everyone has. He is strong enough to deal. He's blah, blah...blah." He sighed a softly, a little unsure where the irritation in his voice was coming from. "But he's not like the rest of us, and you know it. There are days, you know...that I hope he dies before you do. Because I don't think I can deal with his whirlwind...."
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"It would take a lot more medicine than he's on to tranq a horse, Tyler," he said. And it made him wonder if Ty had ever bothered to peek at Elisha's own medicine cabinet, which was home to its own cocktail. Probably not. "But I did leave him once, a few years before you and Sarah were born. It didn't stick. It...would have even less chance of sticking now, I think."
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"I just, I wish...." He didn't even know what he wished, really. Maybe he never would. "I just don't think I can deal with him, Dad. I love him, he is my father....but I don't think there is repairing what has happened to us. And I don't know that there is any starting over either. So....I don't know."
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Well, it was different when it was your own, he supposed. Eileen was his; Ty and Sarah and Carlos were theirs.
"There aren't any easy answers," he said. He wondered what his own relationship as an adult with Reina would have been. As it was...as it was, he'd not been able to forgive her for years after her death. And that had been when he was seventeen. "I'm not telling you that you have to be close. I wish you were, but I understand that you can't. I just want you to know that he does love you, and he will worry about you, and if you go get yourself in an explosion in an abandoned house...he's going to sit up by your bed on any nights when Oliver can't push him out and I can't force him to come to bed. That's going to happen whether you think he should or not. He's your father."
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"I mean...." He looked away, toward a wall as he tried to figure out what he was trying to say, trying to ask. "I thought....I could do it all, I could take your place- but now...heh. I'm scared, and I don't even know why."
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"Well, for one, I'm always a little bit scared. It's what keeps me sharp." Though he could have stood for a little more fear, a little less confidence, he thought. It might have prepared him for this possibility. "The trick isn't not being scared. It's not letting the fear have command. There are things that have to be done, and they have to be done whether I'm afraid or not."
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"Don't suppose you'd let me go back to work this week...So I could find out who tried to kill me?" He asked, even through he leaned just a little closer to he father. Despite it all, Elisha was still the one that was the rock...and his guide. It didn't take someone long to piece together a reason why taking Ty out was important.
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"That's adorable," he said out loud. "No. You need to take time to recover. For one, Sebastian would be so sad that he didn't get to force you to sit still for medical examinations. For another..." He smiled a bit slyly. "You have a boyfriend who'd probably drag you out of your office bodily if you tried."
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"Personally, I would just prefer going back to work, you know. Solve a mystery or two. Give Carlos a break from the paperwork he so loves." He also just needed something to do, and sitting still was not one of those things he was good at. He never had been good at it, and Ty suspected he never would be.
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But Ty was hurt by it, so he did blame him, a little.
"I'd rather you not go after your own would be murderer," he said evenly. "I understand wanting to, but I'd rather you didn't." Still, he'd go stir-crazy himself, so he leaned back a bit. "But maybe you'd like to take some of my work off my hands."
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"I don't suppose we get to discuss which items of interest I would be taking off your hands in advance, either. Because if we did that...." Well, Elisha did so hate some of these meetings, and Ty was starting to suspect he was going to get a first hand taste of them and why they were hated so much.
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"But we can, I suppose, discuss. Your father's likely to frown at me otherwise." It was fair to say Hadyn had his number even better, after all, than Ty.
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"But fine....if you insist." Since he wasn't going back to his job, he might as well get to do something. Anything. Because otherwise his wall was going to make for excellent target practice.