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Tyler Novak-Kagan ([personal profile] missinglinks) wrote in [community profile] wickerpark2017-08-13 11:50 pm
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My ashes, as the phoenix, may bring forth....

Ty's eyes fluttered slowly, and for the first moments he was lost as to what was going on. He had no recollection of where he was, though he could quickly put together that was he in some sort of hospital room. He could also feel his toes, and move his hands- so...that ruled out, well...something. There was a steady beat on a machine to his left, the loud beeping keeping time with his remarkably steady heart as he stared at it before he spotted Ollie sitting in a chair- asleep from everything he could see.

But...that still didn't explain why he was there. Or, actually, why Ollie was there. Maybe they'd gotten into some sort of bar fight. He doubted he'd drank too much, he wasn't a particularly heavy drinker even when he could afford to drink as much as he wanted. Reaching up, he ran a hand over his face, before he sat up. He seemed....alright.

Why couldn't he remember what had happened? The last thing he remembered had just been him....going to bed. So why....

"What's....what's going on?" He asked, reaching up to rub his temple as he tried to message the dull buzz out of his head. There was a persistent fog in his mind, he thought. Maybe after he just woke up more he'd manage to work out that the fucking hell was going on.
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-14 02:40 pm (UTC)(link)
The last two weeks were tied with the two weeks spent dodging Iranian soldiers in the mountains as the worst two weeks of his life, and that was, Ollie often thought, a true accomplishment. He'd had a lot of terrible fortnights in his time. The competition was stiff. But then, it was only his life that could have been lost in the mountains. If Tyler Kagan didn't wake up, he was taking Ollie's heart.

He didn't remember when Sebastian Novak - and Ty's cousin had been the one tasked with dealing with the stubbornly immovable group that surrounded Ty - had stopped trying to force he and Hadyn out of the room. A week or so ago, perhaps, when he'd left it to Hadyn and Ollie to force each other to take breaks. And wasn't that just ironic? The two of them. Ollie had assumed the two of them would never see eye to eye on a damn thing.

As it happened, they saw eye to eye on quite a few things, lately.

It was his night, though, to stay, and Ollie had settled into the chair next to Ty and expected that he wouldn't sleep much; he hardly ever did. He barely slept even the nights he wasn't there, and the night owls of the Deck had often seen Oliver Byrd running through the streets, or heard piano music coming from his apartment at all hours. Eventually that all had to catch up with him, of course, and he'd looked hollow-eyed when he'd pushed Hadyn out of the room. It hadn't taken him long to pass out in the chair.

All of which was why he didn't wake, not until he heard Ty's voice, and then he stared. "You're awake," he breathed out. There had been a part of him, a large, secret part that he never acknowledged, who had feared that Ty never would.
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-14 03:39 pm (UTC)(link)
A part of him had hoped that Ty would wake and be...himself, Ollie thought as he rubbed a hand over his face. Another part wished one of Ty's parents were here. Though they would be, soon enough. "There was an explosion," he said. "At a house outside town. You were there." With Jenkins, who'd already been dead, at least. "I found you there, and brought you home."

It sounded so stark and simple in those terms, Ollie thought as he wet his lips. "You've been...out, for two weeks."
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-15 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Another time, perhaps, he'd be a bit shocked, a bit incredulous that he'd fallen so fast and hard for Ty Kagan. That they'd only really actually been dating for two weeks before this had happened. That losing two weeks of time meant losing almost all of them.

Now, he pressed his lips together and wished that Hadyn was here instead. And that, he thought with a bit of dark amusement, was something Ty would find shocking even if he remembered more. He should get the doctor, he thought, and let someone else explain all this. But then, if it were him - he'd want to know as much as he could first thing. Ollie hid the flinch that the look on Ty's face had given him under the mask that Diamonds were all so good at.

"You're the King of Clubs' son," he said. "You're a highly capable Ten, a man who honed himself into a weapon. If someone wanted to take your father's position, aren't you the first one they'd want out of the way?"
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-16 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
Ollie had spent a lot of time around Hadyn and Elisha the last few weeks - and he had no doubt that there must have been some obstacle keeping him from challenging for Jack, because Elani was utterly useless. A nice enough lady, he supposed, though he'd spent a bit too much time listening to her Very Polite criticisms of his music choices to be completely positive on her, but completely useless as a Jack. Especially a Jack in the Clubs; she was the only one who didn't fit the slightly sharp, certainly devious mold that shaped the rest of the Faces.

He slumped a bit in his chair as the nurse checked Ty's vitals, and glanced over at him again when he spoke. "I think you'll find that there's a lot of people who haven't slept in a while," he said, and paused. "You don't remember me much, do you?"
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-16 04:38 am (UTC)(link)
He'd protest the notion that he looked like a whipped dog. It was more like he looked like an exhausted man, one who'd kept a vigil, only to have it end by Ty waking up and not remembering anything other than a long, meandering dinner followed by long, meandering kisses - and oddly, both of them going to their own apartments. Though celibacy had been brief.

Ollie smiled a bit, though. "Now, that sounds more like you," he said. "Can't decide if you want intel, or me naked. Alas, I feel like the doctor would object to option two." He did, though, lean forward and give Ty a soft kiss. "We've had a whirlwind, you and I," he murmured as he leaned back. "Two very quick weeks. I'm sure your parents worried about me getting my claws in you, or some such thing."

Though with Carlos and Gael, and Sarah getting more distant as both her twin and her best friend got themselves entangled - Ollie also imagined that Hadyn and Elisha might have already had their hands too full to worry about Ty getting tangled up with him. At least he was mostly on an even keel.

"I've got a key, actually, which is how I can tell you that the General has accepted me as a person worthy of opening his cans. Not worth much else, I'm afraid, but he hasn't starved." His smile slipped a bit. "You headed out to check something two weeks ago. It was supposed to be your day off, and I'd spent the night. I came looking for you because you never called."
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-16 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'll tell you every detail," Ollie promised. It would keep him from bolting, a tendency he was well aware he had a tendency towards, he thought. Especially faced with something like this - where he knew Ty was playing along.

His smile faded a bit, though, as Ty mentioned Carlos. Far too much had happened in the last month, he thought. "Carlos is recovering from injuries. He challenged to Nine in swords and it didn't go exactly according to plan." He had a very Outside point of view there, he thought, that he would just ignore for right now. "He got stabbed, in the right thigh. That's fine now, the stitches came out before all of this. But he dislocated his shoulder too. I think you thought it was better to check it on your own, considering."
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-17 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
If he'd known - scratch that, the doctor had told them all it was a strong possibility. If he'd accepted that memory loss was a possibility, maybe he would have written down notes. Then again, it could have been months or years, in which case Ty wouldn't have had any idea who he was.

"I might have been here too much," Ollie said as the doctor left. "I think he just cast me as your husband." Next there'd be instructions for care going to Ollie rather than Ty's parents. He looked over at Ty, though, with a bit of a smile.

"I suspect it doesn't really help to say it could have been a lot worse." It could have, though. Ty could have died. He could have had a leg blown off. He could have had total amnesia. Ollie'd had plenty of time to think about what could have happened in the last few weeks.
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[personal profile] strangebyrds 2017-08-18 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
He'd have to ask the doctor about when Ty could be expected to be able to walk, but he didn't think it'd be too long. "It's probably mostly because you've been stuck in a bed for two weeks," he said. "I'd give it a day or two, and it'll start getting better. You've missed Carlos with a cane, by the way," he said, his lips twitching a little. "It's been a terrifying experience for your guards, I think. Somehow being able to hear him coming just increases the terror."

And...likely Carlos would still be directing Security, he realized. At least for the time being. Even with Ty awake, probably he couldn't immediately take the reins back. "Hadyn has been extra bloodthirsty," he said. "Really, it's been a tie between him and Sarah as to who can come up with the most murderous vengeance. Elisha is...calm. Mostly." Not exactly in a comforting way, however.

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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-18 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"It hasn't been in evidence the last little bit," Elisha said as he and Hadyn came up to the bed. He leaned down and brushed Ty's curls off his forehead, standing between Ty and Ollie. It gave Ollie the opportunity to stand up and slip out of the hospital room virtually unnoticed - at least by Ty's parents.

He wasn't angry at Ty; what reason did he have to be angry at Ty? He asked himself as he went down a quiet hall and paused. He turned and leaned his head against the wall for a moment, closing his eyes. He was tired, he thought. Very tired, and he just wasn't being rational about it. He'd give Ty some time with his actual family, and they'd...figure it out.

"How many times have you tried to get out of bed so far?" Elisha asked in the makeshift hospital room with a faint twitch to his lips. He could say that he knew his son, but it was more fair to say that he knew himself, and he knew that this happened to be a way his children were like him.
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-19 11:55 am (UTC)(link)
Well, Oliver had thought he could leave with no one noticing, certainly, but Elisha had felt him slip out, and if he hadn't - there was the bewildered look Ty gave the door, and the slight frown Hadyn sent in that direction.

"I'm sure your father could share some words about emulating me in unnecessary ways," Elisha said a bit gravely. They hadn't seen the doctor yet, but he had been in the army - and he'd seen brain injuries before. The time Ty had lost might be recovered - and might be gone forever. "You went alone, Oliver said. Probably you should have taken him along at minimum." He'd been aware Oliver Byrd could handle himself before the music director had clashed with Hadyn the first time; he'd been aware within months of the man coming to Diamond Castle. And for all that Ollie's military past had been spent in aircraft rather than on ground, one didn't survive the crash he'd survived without some steel and a strong survival instinct.

He shook his head though, looking over at Hadyn before speaking again. "What do you last remember?"
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-21 01:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, Elisha thought, that explained a bit about why Oliver had slipped from the room like a ghost. It was no one's fault - no one except who'd done this, at least - but Ty didn't remember what was, honestly, one of the most dramatically emotional months in their family since he'd left his forties. "Your brain's protecting you from the Deck dramatics," he said with a bit of a smile as he reached out to take Ty's hand. Carlos and Sarah had been torn up over Gael Shaw's spiral downward, and then Carlos' challenge to Nine hadn't gone as flawlessly as they might have hoped. He suspected that his son's relationship with Oliver Byrd had progressed as quickly as it had because they were both calms in the emotional storm. Neither one of them had, particularly, been going through hell.

Which was likely to change now, no matter how much he might like to force it to be otherwise.
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-23 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
Elisha flicked a bit of a bland look between his son and his partner. He was fairly sure his family was convinced he had a convenient blind spot when it came to interpersonal relations, but it wasn't true. He knew the undercurrents here as well as he knew the undercurrents almost everywhere in the Deck. Ty was trying to be the parent, but sometimes he needed to be the child.

"Hadyn," he said though. "Would you mind if I had a minute with Ty?" His lips twitched. "You can go smoke and we'll pretend we don't know."

He waited until Hadyn was gone before he leaned his elbows on his knees. "I can practically sense you trying to protect us from what's going on in your head," he said. "You don't have to, you know. You can be upset and pissed off and we can take it, son."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-23 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"I've never really told you about your grandmother," Elisha said after listening to Ty wind down. "The one we named Sarah after. She raised me by herself, in a manner of speaking, in Tel Aviv, before she died in a car accident when I was sixteen." That was exactly how much he'd told the twins about Reina Kagan. Oh, a few more details, perhaps. She'd had curly auburn hair and the same brown eyes as Sarah. She'd been an artist who'd taught him to paint. Living with her was full of adventure. The harmless things.

"She was sick too," he said. "Sometimes she'd come in like that, and there was no understanding what was going through her head. And sometimes she'd crash, and want to end it all, too. So, I do understand, Ty. I know where you're coming from." He hadn't wanted to be what broke his mother, either. The difference between Hadyn and Reina was - Hadyn had done something about it. Reina had, at some point along the line, embraced her disorder as artistic temperment. He shook his head a bit, though; getting mired in past 50 years old wasn't worth it.

"You can only protect so much," he said. "And at some point you've got to remember that fighting against something like bipolar takes emotional strength. Your grandmother didn't have that strength, but your papa does. He has more than I do, really." And sometimes Ty needed to be the kid.

"I think you'll find most people who love you haven't been sleeping much," he said, though. "Sarah's running on rage and coffee fumes and Carlos is just powering through it. You can't expect less from Hadyn."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-23 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
There were days, Elisha thought, where Hadyn hoped the same. He didn't; he was fairly sure losing Hadyn Novak at this stage would break him, and for all that their children thought of him as the rock, Elisha wasn't sure they wanted to see the truth of it. He wasn't so sure he was the strong one, or even the sane one, as much as he was the one with a less showy version of fucked up.

"It would take a lot more medicine than he's on to tranq a horse, Tyler," he said. And it made him wonder if Ty had ever bothered to peek at Elisha's own medicine cabinet, which was home to its own cocktail. Probably not. "But I did leave him once, a few years before you and Sarah were born. It didn't stick. It...would have even less chance of sticking now, I think."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-25 11:48 am (UTC)(link)
There had been a certain irony, really. When Eileen had been the moody teenager - and she'd had plenty of moods that Elisha felt ill-equipped to deal with, especially around the time when Argine had finally succumbed - Hadyn had constantly been telling him not to be so hard on her. But when they'd had their own children...

Well, it was different when it was your own, he supposed. Eileen was his; Ty and Sarah and Carlos were theirs.

"There aren't any easy answers," he said. He wondered what his own relationship as an adult with Reina would have been. As it was...as it was, he'd not been able to forgive her for years after her death. And that had been when he was seventeen. "I'm not telling you that you have to be close. I wish you were, but I understand that you can't. I just want you to know that he does love you, and he will worry about you, and if you go get yourself in an explosion in an abandoned house...he's going to sit up by your bed on any nights when Oliver can't push him out and I can't force him to come to bed. That's going to happen whether you think he should or not. He's your father."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-25 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Not the easiest thing to answer, Elisha thought. Not even something he thought about, strictly speaking, because it was an everpresent part of daily life for him. Maybe the kids never realized - he hoped they hadn't. And maybe, before now, few had dared, because most who might have remembered the about-face that had led to an artistic Six rising to a very sharp Ten in three months time.

"Well, for one, I'm always a little bit scared. It's what keeps me sharp." Though he could have stood for a little more fear, a little less confidence, he thought. It might have prepared him for this possibility. "The trick isn't not being scared. It's not letting the fear have command. There are things that have to be done, and they have to be done whether I'm afraid or not."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-26 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
That was life, Elisha thought. Life on the Deck, at any rate, and life Outside...had it's own tragic quirks, just less likely to involve poison and blades and spies sneaking away in the night. More likely to involve explosions, honestly, and it was one of the many times he cursed this place and it's tendency to pretend that only the good parts of the Outside world could come in.

"That's adorable," he said out loud. "No. You need to take time to recover. For one, Sebastian would be so sad that he didn't get to force you to sit still for medical examinations. For another..." He smiled a bit slyly. "You have a boyfriend who'd probably drag you out of your office bodily if you tried."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-26 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
"Not his finest moment, probably," Elisha said with a shrug. He understood the need for air, of course, and it was exactly as Hadyn had said. Ollie'd about burned himself out, and with Ty not remembering enough to even know why - Elisha couldn't blame him.

But Ty was hurt by it, so he did blame him, a little.

"I'd rather you not go after your own would be murderer," he said evenly. "I understand wanting to, but I'd rather you didn't." Still, he'd go stir-crazy himself, so he leaned back a bit. "But maybe you'd like to take some of my work off my hands."
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[personal profile] artificialpalette 2017-08-26 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
"You're thinking I'm going to drop the budget committee on you," Elisha said with a sage nod. "Hadn't crossed my mind." The entertainment committee, though. The winter party season was coming up, and with it a gaggle of eveningwear obsessed planners agitating for a ball. The only joy he got out of it was coming up with alternatives to disappoint the people wanting to get into a hundred yards of purple tulle.

"But we can, I suppose, discuss. Your father's likely to frown at me otherwise." It was fair to say Hadyn had his number even better, after all, than Ty.